Finding True Intimacy
Finding True Intimacy
I N T I M A C Y: a close, familiar, and usually affectionate or loving personal relationship with another person
Whenever I would hear or think about the word intimacy, marriage would be the first thing to come to mind. There is no one who knows you better than your wife/husband. But what about those who don’t have a wife or a husband? We were created for relationship and intimacy, so for years I’ve searched for that through my family, friendships, and relationships only to be left with wanting more. Eventually, I just came to terms with the fact that this level of intimacy that I’ve been craving will have to wait until marriage. But that left me in a dangerous place…desiring a husband more than I was desiring God. I was wanting and thinking about a husband that I don’t even have more than I was wanting and thinking about God.
HUGE RED FLAG.
Throughout this DTS (Discipleship Training School) God has revealed to me that I don’t need to wait for marriage to discover and experience authentic intimacy. Like I said, we were created for intimacy, for a relationship. And yes, a lot of us are called to marry eventually, but first and foremost, we were created to have a relationship with our first love, our creator, God. I’m not wrong in wanting this one of a kind intimate relationship, but I was looking for it in all the wrong places when all along, God was right there just waiting for me to see that it was Him and Him alone who could fulfill this hunger in my soul.
I am now at the end of week 7 of my DTS in Australia and during these last several weeks God has really been challenging me to be intimate with Him. The ultimate question is, “How do you be intimate with God? Someone you can’t physically see or touch?”. One simple word shifted this perspective for me…
V U L N E R A B I L I T Y
To have intimacy, you need to be vulnerable. God wants me to genuinely show Him my heart and to quit giving religious “Jesus answers” but to be real with Him and be real with myself. To show Him my mess and to know that it’s okay to not be okay.
God isn’t scared of my frustration or doubts, instead He welcomes them and loves more than anything when we want Him to be a part of the hard nasty things just as much as He’s a part of the beautiful things.
To know someones heart is such a beautiful and intimate thing, and not only does God want to know our hearts, but He longs for us to know His heart. I’ve learned that the only way to get to know God’s heart, is to spend time with Him. Before DTS, to me that meant doing a devotional, praying and journalling daily, which, lets be honest, gets to be tedious. But this week I felt really convicted by that. There doesn’t have to be structure and planning to spending time with God. There is absolutely nothing wrong with devotionals, journalling, and praying, but that’s not the only way to spend time with Him. Just like you wouldn’t only spend time with one of your friends by writing letters. You do things and go places together, sometimes you need just to process with them and sometimes they really just need you to listen to them. It’s no different with God. God is wanting me to find new ways to be intimate with Him.
Everyday He’s breaking me out of this box that I’ve tried to fit my life in and is showing me just how much more He has in store for me if I dare to just step outside of the box a little bit each day. So this season, I am being challenged to make my relationship with God my own. I’m creating my own authentic, genuine, and intimate relationship with my first love, God.
If you are looking into learning more about intimacy with God or if you are wanting to experience what I have talked about, take a look at applying for a Discipleship Training School here.