Understanding vs. Trusting
I sit here in Canada to write out some more thoughts to my fellow readers. I was expecting I would be back in Australia by now, but due to delays with the acceptance of my newest visa, here in Canada I remain for the time being.
I have found myself easily getting discouraged, disappointed, confused, annoyed, upset, & frustrated….
“God, WHERE is this visa?”
“God, I have prayed to you for it!”
“God, what’s the point of praying if you’re not answering me?”
“God, don’t you realize I need to be back there by next week?”
“God, I’m confused.”
I think all of you could maybe agree with me that these are valid thoughts. I was so frustrated this morning as I was thinking about my visa situation. I feel God asking me to trust Him in this process, but honestly, I just wanted to sit in frustration because I felt I deserved it. I could choose to trust, but frankly, I just didn’t want to chose it. “Why do I have to choose it when you could just get my visa granted and we can all be on our way and not have to deal with any of this?” I thought.
It was in this moment that I realized something between me and God…
I’m not asked to understand Him. But rather, I’m asked to trust Him.
HOWWWWWW anti-cultural does this sound?! We would probably all like to say that we don’t always have to understand something before we do it, but if we reflect on things, I think we aren’t as OK with it as we think. Heck, when kids start talking, that is one of their famous first words when you ask them to do something: “Why?!”
I think we often live our lives with a belief that we have a right to understand. Especially as Christians… we often get asked by God to do something and it doesn’t make sense… so we wait to proceed on it until it does make sense. But aren’t we missing the point? We are supposed to walk by F A I T H. Faith is believing W I T H O U T seeing. And frankly, I can admit right here and now that if faith is believing without seeing, I know my life will NOT be based on doing something because I UNDERSTAND it. So if I don’t understand my life, what’s my next step? What am I trusting in? Who am I trusting in?
“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart.
Lean not on your own understanding.
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
& He will direct your path.”
– Prov. 3:5-6
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”
– Jer. 17:7-8
“May the God of hope fill you
with all joy and peace as you trust in him,
so that you may overflow with hope
by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
– Rom. 15:13
Despite all of my emotions in the waiting, I have never let myself get to a place of feeling defeated. Feeling defeated would mean I have no hope left. No matter what life throws at us, it may leave us feeling weak and discouraged, but would we never be hopeless. Let’s not beg for understanding but let’s be patient in trusting. It’s easier said than done, but I’ve seen God give me strength and answers before, so I know He can do it again- for me and for you! 🙂
I love this song “Take Courage”. Remember: He is in the waiting.